Hi guys. A lot of you know me around here as Jim, or any other name you can come up with for me. My real name is Jamie. I am currently 17 years old, turning 18 on The 13th of May. I am currently in my last year of school, working a job and trying to make something of my life.
I joined and started playing this game back around September of 2011 and I never made a forums account until 2014 which means I never got to talk to any of you guys on here. Back then I used to play this game all the time with a few friends and we would be on this game for about 5+ hours every single day on DigDeep, trying to build a house in the first "hell" and constantly dying every few minutes.
However those days are long gone as those friends who I just mentioned (there were 4 of them) I'm the only one who still has an Xbox out of those guys and we have spoken to each other in years. They've all grown up and gotten jobs and don't have time for Xbox sadly. Which is a sad feeling since we were always online with each other and playing this game, and other games, all the time back in the day.
But I wanted to say this other thing too..
I have been dealing with depression for well over a year now.
It's been really, really tough on me, and there's been sometimes where I've been struggling so badly with it and don't know what to do, that I just sit in silence and think about what I'm actually doing with my life. I mostly get negative thoughts which really isn't good at all. I haven't got any suicidal thoughts yet which is good because I've recently been starting to improve and talk to people.
The first people that I told about my depression were my parents and honestly just from telling them, it made me feel so much better as they sat and talked with me for a solid 2 hours, as soon as I told them, they were doing the best that they could in asking me what was causing it and trying to help me solve my problems which really improved my health siverely.
The main things that I've been struggling with are school, my job and relationships. School and my job being the main cause of my depression. See, I'm currently in my very last year in school which is called "Upper 6th" over here in the UK (I'm not quite sure what that is over in the U.S. etc) But it has really taken a toll on me as I've been constantly swamped in work and other issues that I was finding it hard to deal with. My job has affected me a lot too, being that I really don't like it and dealing with innapropriate and rude customers. I really dislike my job but I need the money for a lot of things at this current stage of my life and I can't afford to quit as there are no jobs out there.
Ever since I got really involved with this community, talking to people and playing with you guys on Xbox. It's has really helped me so much it's amazing. I still suffer with depression but it's not as bad as it was over a year ago. As I said I left the Total Miner Discord last night as I was struggling with something just a little bit and I could be bothered listening and banning those trolls that joined last night, just to scream in the voice chat.
Trub was roasting me last night in the voice chat but that was just good banter and Trub being Trub.
I have to thank bob too for adding me to the Total Miner team and letting me be a Jr. Moderator. Ever since then, I've felt like I've had an important role to play and set and example for the new-comers and members in general. Because ever since I became a Jr. Mod, I've became really good friends with a lot of you guys on here, which has really, really, really helped me deal with my depression, as I have had people to talk to and chat with. Talking with people when you have depression really helps a person deal with their depression, as keeping quiet and bottling up your emotions is so incredibly bad for you, it's terrible.
Thank you so much everybody for letting me be a part of your community! Thank you bob for letting me be a part of the Total Miner team! Thank you Craig for creating the game in general, as if it weren't for him, this game and community wouldn't exist and I would have never gotten the chance to talk to any of you guys!
You guys have really helped me deal with my depression and I am slowly getting better. It will take a long while to overcome my depression but I am getting there slowly but surely.
I'll say it again! Thank you everyone so much for letting me be apart of your community! It has really helped me deal with my depression and if it weren't for you guys, I could've possibly been in an entirely different mindset in life.
Thank you so much!