Honestly, I don't know what to do with my life anymore.
I was told by recruiters today that I had no chance of getting into the military for medical reasons outside of my control. Being a USAF CCT was my dream job (Seriously, I actually started hitting the gym and studying harder so I could prepare early) and that opportunity was taken from me, and there's nothing I can do about it. I was in tears over this.
That same medical condition now prevents me from getting my driver's license.
I doubt I'll ever be skilled enough as a coder to get an actual career as one.
I was planning on doing this program at school where you do your junior and senior year at a local community college (so you can get an associates degree right out of highschool, while getting free college), but you need really good grades for that and I lack motivation/discipline to do well in school anymore.
I literally have no idea what I'm doing with my life anymore. I just don't care about anything anymore. This isn't intended to be a cry for attention or whatever, I just really need to vent right now.
Congratulations, you're now starting your Hero's Journey! Let me explain.
Every hero has a dream, a vision of how life should be for him or her. Gary briefly touched on this in his example, wanting to be a cop. Im going to use the movie the Hobbit as an example.
Bilbo Baggins is just an average guy right? He just wants to remain in his home and eat tons of food and relax, until he is tasked to do with something great, something hard. Something that is going to change his life forever. He denies it at first. What? A deadly mission across half the world where i might die?!@? Are you f***ing serious? But what does he do? HE CHANGES HIS MIND, HE REALIZES WHAT HE HAD ORIGINALLY PLANNED WASNT GOING TO WORK.
And then we get this:
Anyway, you've reached the obstacle. Not by your choice unlike in the hobbit, but what you originally planned didnt work out, now you pursue something radically different.
Let me explain my story.
Coming into high school, i was 6'3 160lbs, and could catch almost any ball thrown my way. I thought i was gonna be the star Wide Receiver on the football team, and then play college ball. I didnt know what i wanted to do, just as long as i made a lot of money.
Sop-hom-ore year comes around. I hadnt grown, i hadnt put on weight, months of work in the offseason meant nothing. I ended up 3rd string and didnt play a single play the entire year. I realized i wasnt going to be able to play football, so i quit. I had 4 hours extra everyday for activities, i didnt know what to do with myself. Thats when i picked up TM again, and started my YT channel. I got more involved in the community, eventually finding great people.
When scheduling for my junior year came about, i needed an extra elective. My buddy Jake who talked me into playing Rugby, told me to take an Intro to J-A-V-A
class with him. Reluctantly i agreed and i fell in love with coding. I now am looking at several schools to go for computer science, and only 8 weeks into Rugby i love it!
Moral of the story: We were put on this Earth for a reason, and sometimes we dont know what it is. Sometimes we get it dead wrong. And then God has to smack in the face with some very awful news like not getting into Military institutions to put you on your path. But keep your head up. Ill leave you with one of my favorite quotes:
"Go as far as you can see; when you get there, you'll be able to see farther."
-Keep banging Marooca, the devil doesnt like hard workers